Strong. 10.08.11

First of all I remember being in Lyttelton or some place high up, looking down over a city on the top of a hill and it was snowing. I think this place had something in relation to the farm or a party, Alien Nation maybe. I was waiting for a bus or a ride up the top of a snowy hill at a big bus stop and I think Mason was with me.

Next scene I am down at a house, similar to Sam's house on Tuam st. There a few people here, Alex is the main one I know. She is taking acid again and I'm getting really angry at her, telling her that she should be careful, she is shocked by my response and takes it anyway. Then, she takes another whole tab and I'm asking her why? She goes quiet for a few hours and is just walking around the house, there is a TV and couches and beds in the lounge where lots of people are. Amy, Shynon, Alex and Jono are all with me.

I sit opposite to Shynon and I'm just chilling out not even really aware of the fact he is there, he is sitting next to two people and is talking with them, barely noticing I am here, when suddenly he says 'Scarlett, I have something for you, you must of left it with me sometime' and pulls out a nicely rolled spliff! I check if its real weed and it is, I'm fucking stoked! I'm going to wait til the morning and then smoke it.

Next scene some lady ends up in the lounge, wanting Alex to drive over a hill which is about an hour long drive for something. Alex tells me she will get $40 petrol money and a tab if she drives over there, but she is already really wasted and I'm telling her its a bad idea! The other lady is trying to convince Alex to drive and I find out that the male that wants to see them just wants to have sex with them, and possibly rape them, so I'm telling her don't go Alex, don't go! He just wants to rape you! She is not listening to me and is going to go anyway, but is still being quiet just walking around. In the end she listens and I ask if shes still going and she says no, you were right, its not a good idea. I sit down next to her in the hallway and say 'I'm not trying to be a bitch, I just care about you', she looks me right in the eye as I say this for the first time.

Next scene I am inside, looking for Jono. I can't find him anywhere and then notice that Shynon and some other girl are asleep on the couch and people are napping, I see two blankets and a couch and know that Jono will be under there, I go and peel the blankets back and see thats its him, giving him a big hug and rubbing his hair, he has a shaved patch on the side of his head. He says something half asleep like 'can you go and sleep over there..' but then opens his eyes and realizes its me, and says 'you're warm'. 'You too', I say back and just continue to stand there hugging him, he is very warm..

Can't remember any more..

Strange. 08.08.11

I am spinning around and around in a square/field area with a monorail thing a few meters away from me, my room is just across from me. I'm with Olivia and Jackson but they disappear and vanish to another room, I keep thinking they are still in this green van, but I find them in my bed spooning, so I leave them there.

I'm back spinning and spinning and Jono comes up to me and hugs me from the behind, I give him a hug and say some words, and he can't understand me so we just don't speak. He sticks around for a while but then somehow he has to leave, so he lies down on this monorail thing, which is used to alter your brain somewhat and then make you feel good at the end of the ride, I'm too apprehensive of it but Jono is super keen and goes through it. It ends up at this other place which is where my room and such is all kept, and I see that Jono has gone through it so I go up to the end and try and find him, but hes not there. I figure he must of gone to Hugo's.

Olivia and Jackson are still asleep but I want them to wake up so I can hang out with someone, I'm bored.

I'm at this random green van again, in this massive white warehouse square building, and I see there are lollies in the bulk bins, I grab about 15 blue gummy snakes and go back to the van with them in my hand. I walk past a normal looking male with brown hair who is standing at the shop desk, he knows I have taken the lollies. I was originally planning on just stealing them and going back to the van to continue waiting for.. whatever I was waiting for, but I feel bad so I go back to the van, open the passenger door, get out my pink wallet and hand him a $5 note. I say 'Oh I bet it will cost heaps' and we weigh them out to see how much it will be. It ends up being about $1.19 or something along the dollar lines...

At this point I wake up.

Mocked. 05.08.11

I am in a house. The inside is white. I only remember the kitchen and that I could go through the kitchen, through the hallway and out to a porch/step outside.

Auntie Jill had died, but my mother and nana weren't acting sad about it. I found out but it was vague and I kept trying to ask my mum if it was true but she wouldn't answer me, I don't think she could hear me or she was just ignoring me. My nana was blurred standing somewhere next to my mum. I went to my dad in the kitchen and started crying saying 'Auntie Jill is dead, shes dead..' and he just mocks me and pulls a face and cries, taking the piss out of me. I go back outside in disbelief and anger as no one seems to care that my Auntie Jill is dead! My nana and mum are just chatting casually next to each other, my dads disgruntled doing dishes or something.. I continue to cry and be upset for a while longer.. then I wake up.