Angry and Righteous. 27.02.2012

It started off somewhere with me getting a ride from Amy's up to Alien, but instead of it being the Alien site, it was a random other site that had a road similar to the road up to Canaan downs.
I was going to Alien to party this time, not to help out. We arrived and parked up on some concrete, there was a little bit of water around us and a river we had to cross to get to the party. As we parked and got out, the water started leaking everywhere and was going to flood the car. I think it was Alex's and she was scared so she quickly turned it back on and drove out. Olivia was swimming across this flooded rocky dangerous looking river and I wasn't keen. I'd left my bag at Amy's anyway so I went with Alex back to Mot, and got my bag which was sitting in the hallway.
Don't know how I got back to the site, but when I did I looked at my little money bag, realizing some was gone. Jackson or some other random person had told me that Matt Soper stole my money, I didn't know how much I had so I didn't know how much he took, but I knew it was about $140. Everybody seemed so casual about the theft of my money and I went and hit him up about it, screaming and getting really self righteous and pissed off, 'give me back my fucking money'. He seemed just really jaded about the whole thing and wouldn't really give me a proper answer back.
Next scene he was in the back of Jahne's car, and they were all leaving to drive back to Dunedin. I asked him for some of the money now and he gave me two five dollar notes, Jono was sitting behind him in the boot of the car and tried to give me some coins. I said "No jono, I don't want your money I want Matt's", but it was a kind gesture.
Somehow Matt Soper wanted me to buy him a $100 bottle of Rum, so I went and bought it. He was of course paying me back for all of this. I ended up drinking a little bit of it, it tasted nice. I went back to the car and told him I drunk a little bit, so he only had to pay me back $70. He was ungrateful and seemed to not want it, so I ran away with it and was so angry that I threw it and it smashed onto a tree in the forest, I went over to look with another girl from the party and saw it was all spilled and smashed. I was quite pissed off at myself for doing this and left the area.
I went down to the dancefloor where I saw a group of people sitting down, Jono was in the circle of people so I avoided them and went and talked to Warwick, who was standing in the middle o the dancefloor looking wasted. I asked him how he was and he said 'pretty wasted', I suddenly got a view of the world from his eyes and completely understood. A few other people came up to him and started surrounding him, so I knew it was my time to flee.
I went back to the camp site, Shynon was there with a few other people, we didn't really talk but he seemed quiet and a wee bit upset. I climbed up to a top bunk that was in a little open cabin thing, and tried to get reception on my phone, looking down at Shynon confusedly, while he just stood there looking placid. I was going to ask him how he got out of jail for Alien, but someone then said something about bail/release time and that he was allowed for the weekend or something.
I was with Matt Soper again now, telling everyone that he stole money from me and didn't seem to give a fuck, no one cared. I was trying to be nice to him so he would pay me back, he was following me around while I was slagging him off to people but then realizing he was there and being like 'okay, sorry yeah stop Scarlett' in my mind.
I left early because everyone else was and went past a beautiful, big blue river/lake with lots of people standing on the shore in their togs.
Overall I was pretty raged the whole dream.

Confusion. Weird places. 17.10.11

First thing I remember was being in a big wooden two story house in Linwood. I lived here. Buddy and Brittany and my parents also lived here, and one other adult. I was in my bedroom after a really long day and I crashed out in my bed, in the dark. I woke up at 12pm the next day to Cam sticking his head in the door, and my parents telling me my friend was here. I was confused as to how Cam got to my house but am also really excited cos its Cam! I got up in a hurry and walked around the house a bit, but when I got back to my room Cam was gone. This made me even more confused.
Next scene Alex, Jackson, Olivia and I wanted to go to Eastgate so we started walking. Alex didn't want to walk the whole way so she got her mum to pick us up and take us down the road.. at first she wasn't going to drive past Eastgate and just drop us off a few minutes walk before the mall but Alex wanted her to drop us right at Eastgate. She was going to drop us right there. I got out of the car for a second to do my shoelace up or find something that I accidentally chucked outside or something, and bent down near the grass looking for it, just as I was about to get back in they drove away from me, leaving me down a side street in Linwood.. I was kind of confused but didn't really care and just continued to walk, until I saw a scary looking male walking in front of me on the other side of the road. He crossed the road and looked back at me right in the eye, so I crossed the road trying to avoid him but he turned around and started walking up to me. He was kind of pudgy, with glasses and blondey/brown hair. He didn't look threatening but I could feel that he was. He started asking me where I was going and trying to walk up close to me so I pretended to go down someones driveway but he got there first and was in front of me in the drive way so I couldn't get down it, I looked around frantically because I thought he was going to hurt me and saw a house two houses down with a gate and the door quite close up to the street. I jumped over their gate and got away from the dude, knocking on their door. I could see that one of their back room lights was on so I knew I'd be okay. The dude that approached me on the street is pretty much gone now, and some posh looking lady with a short blonde bob cut answers the door, holding a bottle of wine. I am crying a wee bit and I can't really talk or say what I'm trying to but I say 'I'm scared, theres a scary man out on the street following me'. She tells me to come inside and brings me into a white modernized lounge where three other people are also drinking wine. It has a funky colorful painting in the lounge which I take notice to. I'm still halfly sobbing because I was so scared and I'm trying to call Alex and other people off my phone to come and help me, Alex doesn't answer her phone and I'm pissed off because they just drove away from me and then I was in a bad situation.. I'm too scared to go back outside, and these hipster adults in their lounge seem way too preoccupied and happy to deal with some sobbing scared teenager, so I somehow leave and appear at Eastgate mall; where most things have changed and look different and now there are two big escalators, one going up and one going down.
I can't exactly remember what happens in this scene but I think there is a man in the mall with a gun, possibly the same man that came across me on the streets but a wee bit different. I am running through the top story of the mall trying to find an exit, but can't, so I go down the escalator to the bottom floor of the mall where a massive food court (almost like Riccarton Malls foodcourt) is. I don't see anybody but hear my name 'Scarlett'!! being shouted out at, I tell them all to 'SHUTUP' really loudly and then run back up the escalator.. I'm frankly on a mission and am a bit scared still.. but don't think I'm still running from this guy.
I get into a corner of the mall and try and call Buddy; Brittany answers and is talking to me and I'm trying to explain whats happening, Buddy is now talking to me and I am asking him if he can come and pick me up from Eastgate to take me back to the house I went to for help, hes saying hes on his way but I don't think he is and something is going wrong with the cellphone so I don't think he can hear me..
Scenes get mixed up, I was at the persons house with the adult hipsters before I went to Eastgate, and it had somewhat turned into a party kind of thing.. Jono turns up really drunk and bumps into me, and Lyzz and Hanan are also there somewhere in their backyard. I try telling Jono about what happened but he is too drunk and just doesn't want to listen so thats when I leave to go to Eastgate.. then I get a text from Jono saying 'call me in 4 minutes' or something along those lines and I get the impression he wants me to come hang out, so I'm trying to call Buddy to ask him to take me.. but I don't think hes too keen...
I can't remember any more of this dream, just waking up and being able to actually remember it. Yay.

Strong. 10.08.11

First of all I remember being in Lyttelton or some place high up, looking down over a city on the top of a hill and it was snowing. I think this place had something in relation to the farm or a party, Alien Nation maybe. I was waiting for a bus or a ride up the top of a snowy hill at a big bus stop and I think Mason was with me.

Next scene I am down at a house, similar to Sam's house on Tuam st. There a few people here, Alex is the main one I know. She is taking acid again and I'm getting really angry at her, telling her that she should be careful, she is shocked by my response and takes it anyway. Then, she takes another whole tab and I'm asking her why? She goes quiet for a few hours and is just walking around the house, there is a TV and couches and beds in the lounge where lots of people are. Amy, Shynon, Alex and Jono are all with me.

I sit opposite to Shynon and I'm just chilling out not even really aware of the fact he is there, he is sitting next to two people and is talking with them, barely noticing I am here, when suddenly he says 'Scarlett, I have something for you, you must of left it with me sometime' and pulls out a nicely rolled spliff! I check if its real weed and it is, I'm fucking stoked! I'm going to wait til the morning and then smoke it.

Next scene some lady ends up in the lounge, wanting Alex to drive over a hill which is about an hour long drive for something. Alex tells me she will get $40 petrol money and a tab if she drives over there, but she is already really wasted and I'm telling her its a bad idea! The other lady is trying to convince Alex to drive and I find out that the male that wants to see them just wants to have sex with them, and possibly rape them, so I'm telling her don't go Alex, don't go! He just wants to rape you! She is not listening to me and is going to go anyway, but is still being quiet just walking around. In the end she listens and I ask if shes still going and she says no, you were right, its not a good idea. I sit down next to her in the hallway and say 'I'm not trying to be a bitch, I just care about you', she looks me right in the eye as I say this for the first time.

Next scene I am inside, looking for Jono. I can't find him anywhere and then notice that Shynon and some other girl are asleep on the couch and people are napping, I see two blankets and a couch and know that Jono will be under there, I go and peel the blankets back and see thats its him, giving him a big hug and rubbing his hair, he has a shaved patch on the side of his head. He says something half asleep like 'can you go and sleep over there..' but then opens his eyes and realizes its me, and says 'you're warm'. 'You too', I say back and just continue to stand there hugging him, he is very warm..

Can't remember any more..

Strange. 08.08.11

I am spinning around and around in a square/field area with a monorail thing a few meters away from me, my room is just across from me. I'm with Olivia and Jackson but they disappear and vanish to another room, I keep thinking they are still in this green van, but I find them in my bed spooning, so I leave them there.

I'm back spinning and spinning and Jono comes up to me and hugs me from the behind, I give him a hug and say some words, and he can't understand me so we just don't speak. He sticks around for a while but then somehow he has to leave, so he lies down on this monorail thing, which is used to alter your brain somewhat and then make you feel good at the end of the ride, I'm too apprehensive of it but Jono is super keen and goes through it. It ends up at this other place which is where my room and such is all kept, and I see that Jono has gone through it so I go up to the end and try and find him, but hes not there. I figure he must of gone to Hugo's.

Olivia and Jackson are still asleep but I want them to wake up so I can hang out with someone, I'm bored.

I'm at this random green van again, in this massive white warehouse square building, and I see there are lollies in the bulk bins, I grab about 15 blue gummy snakes and go back to the van with them in my hand. I walk past a normal looking male with brown hair who is standing at the shop desk, he knows I have taken the lollies. I was originally planning on just stealing them and going back to the van to continue waiting for.. whatever I was waiting for, but I feel bad so I go back to the van, open the passenger door, get out my pink wallet and hand him a $5 note. I say 'Oh I bet it will cost heaps' and we weigh them out to see how much it will be. It ends up being about $1.19 or something along the dollar lines...

At this point I wake up.

Mocked. 05.08.11

I am in a house. The inside is white. I only remember the kitchen and that I could go through the kitchen, through the hallway and out to a porch/step outside.

Auntie Jill had died, but my mother and nana weren't acting sad about it. I found out but it was vague and I kept trying to ask my mum if it was true but she wouldn't answer me, I don't think she could hear me or she was just ignoring me. My nana was blurred standing somewhere next to my mum. I went to my dad in the kitchen and started crying saying 'Auntie Jill is dead, shes dead..' and he just mocks me and pulls a face and cries, taking the piss out of me. I go back outside in disbelief and anger as no one seems to care that my Auntie Jill is dead! My nana and mum are just chatting casually next to each other, my dads disgruntled doing dishes or something.. I continue to cry and be upset for a while longer.. then I wake up.

Key Meanings; Symbols I have been dreaming about.

Witches: To dream of witches, denotes that you, with others, will seek adventures which will afford hilarious enjoyment, but it will eventually rebound to your mortification. Business will suffer prostration if witches advance upon you, home affairs may be disappointing.

Killing/People being killed: If you see a killer in your dream it represents an attack on yourself and your emotions and characteristics. You are forgetting what you are about in the rush of things. On the other hand it could be a good symbol of knowing what you want and getting rid of all the negative things that are hindering you from getting it.

Kissing Strangers: If you kiss or are kissed by a stranger symbolizes acceptance of your character. The stranger represents hidden or repressed traits of you. The kiss indicates you are content with yourself and recognize you need to be who you really are. If you are being forced to kiss the stranger then it means you are rejecting aspects of yourself.

Knives: A knife is symbolic of frustration, rage and negative feelings. The dream means that you need to separate yourself and cut away from things in your life that is causing you distress. It could be a relationship, negative situation or a bad habit that you need to cut out of your life.

Fence: A fence in a dream represents the same thing in your waking life, a barrier! Are you climbing over or hiding behind it? There is an obstacle in your path and you are either going to ignore it and excel or stand down and stay where you are. It could also mean that there is a barrier protecting you from harm or something or someone that is trying to bring you down. The fence is a symbol of getting away from the world and being in YOUR OWN WORLD away from everyone else.

Floods: When your house is submerged by water, it means that feelings about your home and family have been very powerful. You feel like the responsibilities keep piling up and you are not getting anywhere. When you feel you need to save someone else from the flood then your responsibility as a caretaker is overwhelming. If materialistic things get destroyed in the flood then your subconscious is trying to tell you to let go of those things, there are more important things in life that money cannot buy! If everything around you like your street or school floods then you feel overwhelmed with things in your life and you just want everything to end so you could make a new beginning. If you find yourself fighting with the water and feeling like you are going under, stop being so stubborn and proud, you need help with your problems!

Forests: This dream signifies uncertainty and bewilderment in your life. If you find yourself misplaced in the forest without knowing which route to take then you do not know what direction you need to take in your life, you are confused. On the other hand, if you find the forest exciting and you easily find your way through it this indicates your enjoyment in adventures life has to offer. If you hear voices coming from animals or they are calling you to show you something then heed their advice they are trying to help you.

Fossil: When you dream of fossils it represents knowledge of history or old ways. You need to pay attention to what fossil is in your dream and relate it to your life, see whats old and need updating.

Playground: Indicates your desires to be carefree and escape from the real world and duties and responsibilities. Maybe you need to be more carefree.

Water and the Ocean: When you dream of an ocean it is symbolic of emotions. Alternatively, the dream means that you are feeling empowered and unhindered. The ocean represents opportunities with no barriers. If the ocean is calm then you are relaxed.If you dream that you are sailing across the ocean by yourself then you have become independent. If the ocean rough, hard to get across, it implies negative feelings. If you are with a crew then it suggests that you have help to battle the rough tides ahead.

23.03.11

I start off at a farm house, somewhere I know that is familiar to me. Some of my friends are there, but not too many. I am bored and restless, and some people in the house seem kind of dodgy and unfamiliar to me, the house is a bit rugged and there are green fields outside everywhere.
Out of the blue Shynon walks in with a pretty girl with blonde hair, I am surprised to see him here, I greet him with a hello and a hug and he goes and sits down with the girl.
I disappear into another reality hole. Now I am with my friend Ashley, and she is out at the farm in a truck. I keep losing my things, my bag or some bags of clothes and stuff that I've left in Nelson or something. I'm in a van with her. There is a girl from inside the house that I recognize and she comes into the van and sits there, talking quietly and then slowly she falls asleep on a pink pillow in the back of the van. She has short brown hair and is quite skinny.
We go back inside, we are waiting for Ashley's friends to get here or she is waiting for me to get my stuff together and leave with her, but I don't want to because I want to talk to Shynon.
She is getting readier and readier to go but somehow I don't want to go with her, I just keep intentionally procrastinating and make her wait.
Next thing out of the blue there about twenty maori people chasing her through the fields and paddocks of lush green, I don't know what to do but it looks like a scary scene so I flee and come across some people again. I'm in the van again coming back into the farm, as I roll in I see about fifty people I vaguely know from parties and such doing circusy things on a lawn in one of the paddocks, I am rather overwhelmed but Ashley doesn't want to stay..
Then another reality hole snap bang change of light; Shynon is lying down on his side, and there is a fence around him, he has done something bad and suddenly I know I don't have time to talk to him anymore.. no one does. I see people giving him hugs and saying good bye, he is going to jail for a few years for doing something bad involving drugs. I go up to him and give him a hug, the hug is really warm, almost a hot sensation and I hug him for a good few minutes. I go to stand up and he looks at me and says "you can stay".
Then before I have time to reply I am somehow getting pushed away from him from these unknown forces and he starts flickering through a television fading in and out, I am trying to get through the television but I can't and I know I won't.
The main color I remember in this dream is green..
And then I woke up...