Confusion. Weird places. 17.10.11

First thing I remember was being in a big wooden two story house in Linwood. I lived here. Buddy and Brittany and my parents also lived here, and one other adult. I was in my bedroom after a really long day and I crashed out in my bed, in the dark. I woke up at 12pm the next day to Cam sticking his head in the door, and my parents telling me my friend was here. I was confused as to how Cam got to my house but am also really excited cos its Cam! I got up in a hurry and walked around the house a bit, but when I got back to my room Cam was gone. This made me even more confused.
Next scene Alex, Jackson, Olivia and I wanted to go to Eastgate so we started walking. Alex didn't want to walk the whole way so she got her mum to pick us up and take us down the road.. at first she wasn't going to drive past Eastgate and just drop us off a few minutes walk before the mall but Alex wanted her to drop us right at Eastgate. She was going to drop us right there. I got out of the car for a second to do my shoelace up or find something that I accidentally chucked outside or something, and bent down near the grass looking for it, just as I was about to get back in they drove away from me, leaving me down a side street in Linwood.. I was kind of confused but didn't really care and just continued to walk, until I saw a scary looking male walking in front of me on the other side of the road. He crossed the road and looked back at me right in the eye, so I crossed the road trying to avoid him but he turned around and started walking up to me. He was kind of pudgy, with glasses and blondey/brown hair. He didn't look threatening but I could feel that he was. He started asking me where I was going and trying to walk up close to me so I pretended to go down someones driveway but he got there first and was in front of me in the drive way so I couldn't get down it, I looked around frantically because I thought he was going to hurt me and saw a house two houses down with a gate and the door quite close up to the street. I jumped over their gate and got away from the dude, knocking on their door. I could see that one of their back room lights was on so I knew I'd be okay. The dude that approached me on the street is pretty much gone now, and some posh looking lady with a short blonde bob cut answers the door, holding a bottle of wine. I am crying a wee bit and I can't really talk or say what I'm trying to but I say 'I'm scared, theres a scary man out on the street following me'. She tells me to come inside and brings me into a white modernized lounge where three other people are also drinking wine. It has a funky colorful painting in the lounge which I take notice to. I'm still halfly sobbing because I was so scared and I'm trying to call Alex and other people off my phone to come and help me, Alex doesn't answer her phone and I'm pissed off because they just drove away from me and then I was in a bad situation.. I'm too scared to go back outside, and these hipster adults in their lounge seem way too preoccupied and happy to deal with some sobbing scared teenager, so I somehow leave and appear at Eastgate mall; where most things have changed and look different and now there are two big escalators, one going up and one going down.
I can't exactly remember what happens in this scene but I think there is a man in the mall with a gun, possibly the same man that came across me on the streets but a wee bit different. I am running through the top story of the mall trying to find an exit, but can't, so I go down the escalator to the bottom floor of the mall where a massive food court (almost like Riccarton Malls foodcourt) is. I don't see anybody but hear my name 'Scarlett'!! being shouted out at, I tell them all to 'SHUTUP' really loudly and then run back up the escalator.. I'm frankly on a mission and am a bit scared still.. but don't think I'm still running from this guy.
I get into a corner of the mall and try and call Buddy; Brittany answers and is talking to me and I'm trying to explain whats happening, Buddy is now talking to me and I am asking him if he can come and pick me up from Eastgate to take me back to the house I went to for help, hes saying hes on his way but I don't think he is and something is going wrong with the cellphone so I don't think he can hear me..
Scenes get mixed up, I was at the persons house with the adult hipsters before I went to Eastgate, and it had somewhat turned into a party kind of thing.. Jono turns up really drunk and bumps into me, and Lyzz and Hanan are also there somewhere in their backyard. I try telling Jono about what happened but he is too drunk and just doesn't want to listen so thats when I leave to go to Eastgate.. then I get a text from Jono saying 'call me in 4 minutes' or something along those lines and I get the impression he wants me to come hang out, so I'm trying to call Buddy to ask him to take me.. but I don't think hes too keen...
I can't remember any more of this dream, just waking up and being able to actually remember it. Yay.

Strong. 10.08.11

First of all I remember being in Lyttelton or some place high up, looking down over a city on the top of a hill and it was snowing. I think this place had something in relation to the farm or a party, Alien Nation maybe. I was waiting for a bus or a ride up the top of a snowy hill at a big bus stop and I think Mason was with me.

Next scene I am down at a house, similar to Sam's house on Tuam st. There a few people here, Alex is the main one I know. She is taking acid again and I'm getting really angry at her, telling her that she should be careful, she is shocked by my response and takes it anyway. Then, she takes another whole tab and I'm asking her why? She goes quiet for a few hours and is just walking around the house, there is a TV and couches and beds in the lounge where lots of people are. Amy, Shynon, Alex and Jono are all with me.

I sit opposite to Shynon and I'm just chilling out not even really aware of the fact he is there, he is sitting next to two people and is talking with them, barely noticing I am here, when suddenly he says 'Scarlett, I have something for you, you must of left it with me sometime' and pulls out a nicely rolled spliff! I check if its real weed and it is, I'm fucking stoked! I'm going to wait til the morning and then smoke it.

Next scene some lady ends up in the lounge, wanting Alex to drive over a hill which is about an hour long drive for something. Alex tells me she will get $40 petrol money and a tab if she drives over there, but she is already really wasted and I'm telling her its a bad idea! The other lady is trying to convince Alex to drive and I find out that the male that wants to see them just wants to have sex with them, and possibly rape them, so I'm telling her don't go Alex, don't go! He just wants to rape you! She is not listening to me and is going to go anyway, but is still being quiet just walking around. In the end she listens and I ask if shes still going and she says no, you were right, its not a good idea. I sit down next to her in the hallway and say 'I'm not trying to be a bitch, I just care about you', she looks me right in the eye as I say this for the first time.

Next scene I am inside, looking for Jono. I can't find him anywhere and then notice that Shynon and some other girl are asleep on the couch and people are napping, I see two blankets and a couch and know that Jono will be under there, I go and peel the blankets back and see thats its him, giving him a big hug and rubbing his hair, he has a shaved patch on the side of his head. He says something half asleep like 'can you go and sleep over there..' but then opens his eyes and realizes its me, and says 'you're warm'. 'You too', I say back and just continue to stand there hugging him, he is very warm..

Can't remember any more..

Strange. 08.08.11

I am spinning around and around in a square/field area with a monorail thing a few meters away from me, my room is just across from me. I'm with Olivia and Jackson but they disappear and vanish to another room, I keep thinking they are still in this green van, but I find them in my bed spooning, so I leave them there.

I'm back spinning and spinning and Jono comes up to me and hugs me from the behind, I give him a hug and say some words, and he can't understand me so we just don't speak. He sticks around for a while but then somehow he has to leave, so he lies down on this monorail thing, which is used to alter your brain somewhat and then make you feel good at the end of the ride, I'm too apprehensive of it but Jono is super keen and goes through it. It ends up at this other place which is where my room and such is all kept, and I see that Jono has gone through it so I go up to the end and try and find him, but hes not there. I figure he must of gone to Hugo's.

Olivia and Jackson are still asleep but I want them to wake up so I can hang out with someone, I'm bored.

I'm at this random green van again, in this massive white warehouse square building, and I see there are lollies in the bulk bins, I grab about 15 blue gummy snakes and go back to the van with them in my hand. I walk past a normal looking male with brown hair who is standing at the shop desk, he knows I have taken the lollies. I was originally planning on just stealing them and going back to the van to continue waiting for.. whatever I was waiting for, but I feel bad so I go back to the van, open the passenger door, get out my pink wallet and hand him a $5 note. I say 'Oh I bet it will cost heaps' and we weigh them out to see how much it will be. It ends up being about $1.19 or something along the dollar lines...

At this point I wake up.

Mocked. 05.08.11

I am in a house. The inside is white. I only remember the kitchen and that I could go through the kitchen, through the hallway and out to a porch/step outside.

Auntie Jill had died, but my mother and nana weren't acting sad about it. I found out but it was vague and I kept trying to ask my mum if it was true but she wouldn't answer me, I don't think she could hear me or she was just ignoring me. My nana was blurred standing somewhere next to my mum. I went to my dad in the kitchen and started crying saying 'Auntie Jill is dead, shes dead..' and he just mocks me and pulls a face and cries, taking the piss out of me. I go back outside in disbelief and anger as no one seems to care that my Auntie Jill is dead! My nana and mum are just chatting casually next to each other, my dads disgruntled doing dishes or something.. I continue to cry and be upset for a while longer.. then I wake up.

Key Meanings; Symbols I have been dreaming about.

Witches: To dream of witches, denotes that you, with others, will seek adventures which will afford hilarious enjoyment, but it will eventually rebound to your mortification. Business will suffer prostration if witches advance upon you, home affairs may be disappointing.

Killing/People being killed: If you see a killer in your dream it represents an attack on yourself and your emotions and characteristics. You are forgetting what you are about in the rush of things. On the other hand it could be a good symbol of knowing what you want and getting rid of all the negative things that are hindering you from getting it.

Kissing Strangers: If you kiss or are kissed by a stranger symbolizes acceptance of your character. The stranger represents hidden or repressed traits of you. The kiss indicates you are content with yourself and recognize you need to be who you really are. If you are being forced to kiss the stranger then it means you are rejecting aspects of yourself.

Knives: A knife is symbolic of frustration, rage and negative feelings. The dream means that you need to separate yourself and cut away from things in your life that is causing you distress. It could be a relationship, negative situation or a bad habit that you need to cut out of your life.

Fence: A fence in a dream represents the same thing in your waking life, a barrier! Are you climbing over or hiding behind it? There is an obstacle in your path and you are either going to ignore it and excel or stand down and stay where you are. It could also mean that there is a barrier protecting you from harm or something or someone that is trying to bring you down. The fence is a symbol of getting away from the world and being in YOUR OWN WORLD away from everyone else.

Floods: When your house is submerged by water, it means that feelings about your home and family have been very powerful. You feel like the responsibilities keep piling up and you are not getting anywhere. When you feel you need to save someone else from the flood then your responsibility as a caretaker is overwhelming. If materialistic things get destroyed in the flood then your subconscious is trying to tell you to let go of those things, there are more important things in life that money cannot buy! If everything around you like your street or school floods then you feel overwhelmed with things in your life and you just want everything to end so you could make a new beginning. If you find yourself fighting with the water and feeling like you are going under, stop being so stubborn and proud, you need help with your problems!

Forests: This dream signifies uncertainty and bewilderment in your life. If you find yourself misplaced in the forest without knowing which route to take then you do not know what direction you need to take in your life, you are confused. On the other hand, if you find the forest exciting and you easily find your way through it this indicates your enjoyment in adventures life has to offer. If you hear voices coming from animals or they are calling you to show you something then heed their advice they are trying to help you.

Fossil: When you dream of fossils it represents knowledge of history or old ways. You need to pay attention to what fossil is in your dream and relate it to your life, see whats old and need updating.

Playground: Indicates your desires to be carefree and escape from the real world and duties and responsibilities. Maybe you need to be more carefree.

Water and the Ocean: When you dream of an ocean it is symbolic of emotions. Alternatively, the dream means that you are feeling empowered and unhindered. The ocean represents opportunities with no barriers. If the ocean is calm then you are relaxed.If you dream that you are sailing across the ocean by yourself then you have become independent. If the ocean rough, hard to get across, it implies negative feelings. If you are with a crew then it suggests that you have help to battle the rough tides ahead.

23.03.11

I start off at a farm house, somewhere I know that is familiar to me. Some of my friends are there, but not too many. I am bored and restless, and some people in the house seem kind of dodgy and unfamiliar to me, the house is a bit rugged and there are green fields outside everywhere.
Out of the blue Shynon walks in with a pretty girl with blonde hair, I am surprised to see him here, I greet him with a hello and a hug and he goes and sits down with the girl.
I disappear into another reality hole. Now I am with my friend Ashley, and she is out at the farm in a truck. I keep losing my things, my bag or some bags of clothes and stuff that I've left in Nelson or something. I'm in a van with her. There is a girl from inside the house that I recognize and she comes into the van and sits there, talking quietly and then slowly she falls asleep on a pink pillow in the back of the van. She has short brown hair and is quite skinny.
We go back inside, we are waiting for Ashley's friends to get here or she is waiting for me to get my stuff together and leave with her, but I don't want to because I want to talk to Shynon.
She is getting readier and readier to go but somehow I don't want to go with her, I just keep intentionally procrastinating and make her wait.
Next thing out of the blue there about twenty maori people chasing her through the fields and paddocks of lush green, I don't know what to do but it looks like a scary scene so I flee and come across some people again. I'm in the van again coming back into the farm, as I roll in I see about fifty people I vaguely know from parties and such doing circusy things on a lawn in one of the paddocks, I am rather overwhelmed but Ashley doesn't want to stay..
Then another reality hole snap bang change of light; Shynon is lying down on his side, and there is a fence around him, he has done something bad and suddenly I know I don't have time to talk to him anymore.. no one does. I see people giving him hugs and saying good bye, he is going to jail for a few years for doing something bad involving drugs. I go up to him and give him a hug, the hug is really warm, almost a hot sensation and I hug him for a good few minutes. I go to stand up and he looks at me and says "you can stay".
Then before I have time to reply I am somehow getting pushed away from him from these unknown forces and he starts flickering through a television fading in and out, I am trying to get through the television but I can't and I know I won't.
The main color I remember in this dream is green..
And then I woke up...

Nuts. 17.02.11

It starts off with me on a bus trying to get home, but my shit Asian driver is a dickhead and won't let me off the whole ride. I keep asking him to stop but he is just driving to the end of the route without listening to me, this is frustrating me immensely, but there is no one else on the bus to help.

That scene somehow finishes and I'm on a field with some of my Hagley friends, Dan, Martin, Beth, Abbey and Kate. They are standing in a line, we are on a farm. Kate goes into a shed and brings back out a gun, where she goes to the road and shoots it randomly. I am unaware that she even had a gun until after its stopped shooting and I ask her what the noise was, she says "I was shooting the gun". I ask "why?" and she says back "Because its funny". This really fucks me off in my dream and I can't believe why she would have a gun in public because she could easily get shot back, she just stands there laughing while I'm yelling at her telling her that that was stupid and she could of gotten shot.

We somehow appear in my house, Kate and I. She is wearing my red berret and is really drunk. She is annoying me. She keeps asking me if she can wear my clothes and sleep in my bed and I'm saying yes but I don't want her to sleep in my bed. I am looking around my room frantically for something and I find my box of really colorful funky shoes. She looks at one pair and says "they're cute can I have them?" and I say "yes just wear them", she has taken my berret down and placed it on my bed which I am happy about, and I don't really care about the shoes too much I just want her to fuck off and leave my house because I have things to do.

She ends up leaving and I am fucking raging to find she has pissed all over my bed, and my pillows. She pops up again and tells me she pissed over my pillows because she couldn't find the toilet and I am changing my bed, disgusted with her. It smells like piss and I am not a happy camper.

We end up in a playground, me and a few other people, where somebody is in trouble so they call their brother, their big brother comes but then about fifty more adults/family members turn up and are all fighting each other, near the swings. I have left and am just watching it talking to someone else but then shit gets serious and I tell some dad not to hit his kid, but he just threatens to beat me up and I decide to leave it at that. People are angry! Why so much anger in this dream?!

Next thing I know I'm in a house, being chased up some stairs, I'm running and I get to the top, I feel like I'm in a computer game because somebody wants to kill me and I know it. I'm at the top and go into someones room, where I ask them to help me not be killed, pretty much beg them really, hes a dude in a pink shirt and is not saying anything back to me. I see the dude thats trying to kill me outside the door, so I jump down off the top story of the stairs down to the bottom and go into this room, I'm suddenly locked in this room and the evil dude is right outside. He comes in and starts touching me, saying he wants to have sex with me and just have 'cuddles' but I don't know what to believe. I sit down with him on a bed and we talk about things and then I decide whether or not to actually believe his intentions. He is lying down on the bed, I am sitting up. He has massive bulging green eyes and white hair, he looks albino and scary, and I do NOT want to have sex with him. I think about things for a while then he kind of morphs in to an attractive male and I feel like having sex with him.

So I hook up with him and sit on top of him, but don't actually fuck him, and do this for a while. After that I decide I need to leave and realize I have my period, and I get embarrassed and leave.

Next thing I know I'm in a toilet, trying to clean myself up but there are four people in the room. Wookie, his girlfriend Maree, Rudy and Simeon. I'm really embarrassed and want them all to leave but they don't understand where I'm trying to get at, only Wookie does. I call him smart and then vanish into another segment of my dream.

Now I am on another bus, Wookie, Simeon and Rudy are on the bus with me, I want to go home but the bus is heading into Rolleston, I need to press the button for the bus to stop as soon as possible. I press it and the bus slows down, I'm running to the front to get off and the bus driver is counting up to ten, he gets to about six and keeps driving, into Rolleston and I'm really angry. Suddenly I am awoken by the sound of my alarm... beep ba beep ba.

Frantic - 13.01.11

I'm chilling out with Stevie in town and all of these other people, and he puts his 6 grams of weed down on the seats outside KFC and walks away. I am still there surrounded by other people so and I can see cops so I grab the weed and stash it in my pocket, to hide for Stevie because I think hes forgotten about it.

I leave and go for a walk down the road, to the bus stop and some guy runs up to me and asks to check my pockets, for something else. Fortunately I have a lot of jerseys on with a lot of pockets and am holding the big jacket I have the weed stashed in, so I'm free and he leaves me.

I see Hank at the bus stop and start talking to her, but all of these other girls come up and start hugging and talking to me and suddenly Hank disappears and I keep walking down the street back to town.

I get back and everyone is gone, so I keep going down the track and find a dance party, and lots of people. I sit down next to a girl and Hamish comes up to me and sits down, we have a good conversation but he stands up and hugs a girl in front of me from behind, staring at me. I just look away, and then somehow don't care or notice anymore..

I go to a caravan, still with my pockets stashed and finding it quite hard to keep all of the weed stashed in my jacket pocket, and see David Tait, I say I want cuddles and he takes that the wrong way and gets completely naked because it is apparently 'too hot' and gets into bed next to me, kissing my neck and my legs, I look at my body and it is really fat, I feel disgusted with myself and tell him I just want to have cuddles, and we both fall asleep for a few hours. When he wakes up he is angry and I run out to go and try find Stevie to tell him about his weed but the cops are still there and I realize I have left my clothes and pajama pants in David's caravan, so I run back and he has thrown all of my clothes outside, I pick them up, put them on and keep running, until I see Rudy on a hill, I give her about a 60 second hug and hold her tightly and we talk and walk, (I'm hugging her in the middle of a massive grassy stairway). We walk up to the top of the hill and then down this little trail and I am telling her how much I've missed her and I didn't think she'd make it but she did and we were happy about that.

I then go back to my house and theres lots of people sitting on my couches but it doesn't feel like my house, I stand next to everybody, Hamish, Squid, Owen, Jono and Spidey and I talk some shit about how I have 6 grams of weed in my pocket and then make a cup of tea or something and sit behind the couch on my laptop, Jahne and Rudy walk in the house and again, I'm running off somewhere, and I see Shynon and I want to go and talk to him, I saw him earlier just by himself but now there is a beautiful black girl sitting in his caravan, and he is telling her he will come back but shes begging him to stay. I grab a book off him and run off into a corner and read it, its a rolled up something a rather. I read it but don't remember what it says, return it back to the caravan and then go back to town, still trying to find Stevie.

The cops are still there, just lurking around KFC, I ask someone if they've seen Stevie and they say yes hes at the party, so I once again go back down the road to the party and end up being with two of my friends. We go into this pit, like a hole in the ground with a ladder going downwards in to it and I tell them about my weed situation, I take off my jacket and put it in my pocket in my other jersey a layer underneath the jacket, but then find out that I have a hidden pocket underneath the normal pocket I have so I try and hide it in there, but its bulging out and falling out everywhere.. To the left of me I see a fence and a house and some windows, there is a 50 year old man sitting at his table eating dinner with a blow up doll, I see a big green eye looking at me and realize its a fuck doll and start laughing, as do my friends, but we then see a sad Asian lady looking out at us and we feel sorry for her.. I get lost in her eyes and my friends start to leave, while I'm still trying to sort out my clothes/weed situation, and they are going up the ladder, I'm screaming at them telling them to wait for me but they don't listen, and the room goes pitch black, I run out and up and I'm back at the party, walking down a long, skinny trail again into tents and caravans...

I don't end up finding Stevie.